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When I was younger I used to think that having many friends was what mattered most in life. But as I grew up, I noticed that many of us are lucky if we even have 1 friend left in our life. And by that "!" friend, I do not mean fair weather friend. I mean a true friend who sticks by you through your up and downs and is always there for you no matter how screwed up or weird you are.

I lived half my life wishing that I could be "that popular" girl everyone likes. But as reality had it, I was the total opposite. I'd like to say that I usually start off having lots of friends. But because I am too straight forward, two faced or whatnot -as the girls loved to call it-, I am usually left with a friend or two at the end of the day. And mind you, those friends of mine could have left me in the lurch and became one of the "popular girls" if they wanted to. But they chose to stay with me. 

Back then I didn't know how to appreciate my friends either. I would trade them in just for a larger group of "friends" who never liked me and then fall back on my true friends later on. And I never quite knew why none of my friendships ever lasted till after I graduated from secondary school. Apparently it was because I always say the wrong things at the wrong time, and I never knew how to keep my mouth shut. Thus I offended a lot of people and made more enemies than friends. And you guessed it. My best friend and I share the same character, that was why we hit off well. Besides that, I have that extremely hateful and arrogant default face. So people think that I hate them for no reason at all when the truth is.... That is how I look like when I do not smile. LOL! People who meet me for the first time always have the impression that I am very hostile and that I hate the entire world. But I'd like to think that I am the exact opposite. Even my friends are afraid whenever I don't smile because they think that they may have said something wrong. Which I find really funny because the way they describe it is like I'm some kind of ferocious beast that is gonna rip them apart.

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But then again, it was also all these huge flaws I have with communicating with others that allowed me to see who my true friends were. Over the years I have noticed who were the people who bothered to try to understand me rather than assume nonsense and listen to rumours. I realised that many people listen to what they are told about another individual. And instead of clarifying with that individual, they choose to believe what they are told "because everyone else believes it, so it must be true". Which in my opinion is absolutely stupid. I think it just makes you look like a total sheep.

Or they listen because they are afraid that if they were to disagree, everyone else will look at them differently like "why are you speaking up for her?" Which again makes you look like... Yes, a sheep.

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Honestly, I don't have a big group of friends. And if I were given a chance to be that "popular kid" everyone adores -highly unlikely though-, I would say no. I have learnt how to appreciate these people because they are the ones who saw things in me that others didn't see. They are the only ones who can put up with my nonsense, grossness -Joyce, you know what I mean-, mood swings, and yet at the end of the day still tell me that they are happy to have me as a friend. They could accept flaws in me that other couldn't and assure me that I am fine the way I am. They are the only people who will tell me if I am doing something wrong or if I am too annoying/childish/bitchy/whatever in my face whether I like it or not. And they are the only people who can tolerate my straightforward opinions and words that can end up a bit overboard. And that is why I love them <3

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Anyway, I have been having a lot of Girl time with my favourite girls this week -like a finally!-

Met up with Samantha yesterday for our long awaited USS trip^^

Check out all the height differences below. I find it really hilarious even though the joke is on me... HAHAHA!

Headed to Bugis to meet Adam at night for a quick date and present hunting before he returns to Army for his 2 week confinement which I am really peeved about because that means I won't be seeing him till after CNY. I'm gonna miss that annoying Soldier Boy <3

Met up with my favourite girls after work today for our overdue Seoul garden date!^^ -check out the height difference again. I might need to start wearing heels around these people-

And of course Joyce and I surprised the January babies with a small cake and a leather key chain! Yay

Ended the day shopping for clothes and having a heart to heart talk which was really refreshing because I haven't had one in ages! 

And yeah.. that pretty much concludes my week. Am really bummed out that I have to work from 10-10 for the next 2 days... Oh well. That's life.

Cheers!^^