Jokers

So apparently I just found out that I give people the impression that I am suicidal. Lol.. I thought it was a damn big joke because I am not.
Just to clear the foggy air of doubt, I am sadistic. I think about shoving a pitch fork up people's asses, burning people alive and shit like that. My tag line when I screw something up is "somebody kill me now" or "can I die now?" But freak... in no way did I mean those stuff in a suicidal way. Lol...
In case you jokers didn't know, there is a difference between being sadistic and being suicidal. Being a sadist is to enjoy watching people die or tortured alive (in my wonderful opinion). Being suicidal is wanting to kill yourself. Do you see the difference?
I don't think it is very nice or wise to label someone as a suicidal freak or someone who loves harming herself when it obviously isn't true at all. I'd admit that when I was younger I used to cut myself. But that was friggin 2 years ago and I have stopped since. If you knew me back when I used to cut myself, I wouldn't blame you for having the impression that I'm suicidal or that I love inflicting pain on myself. But if you just knew me a while ago or months ago I don't think it's fair that you judge me based on what I casually say or what people tell you about me.
And in case you people haven't noticed I have never ever threatened to jump off a building or kill myself even when I'm extremely upset. So how in the world is that being suicidal?  Hello... anybody home?
And before anyone goes about saying that I have no compassion for people because I am a sadist, let me just tell you that I do. I friggin do not like seeing people being tortured to death or dying for no good cause. Unless that person deserves it then hell Yeah I wouldn't mind watching to whole episode. But I still have a friggin heart and I still cry when I see someone who doesn't deserve to die pass on like that.
Having said So much, it's still up to you people to decide if I'm a sadistic suicidal girly who doesn't appreciate life. It's your mouth and mind  afterall. I can't stop you from spreading what you want or thinking what you please.
I think the greatest disappointment would be if someone I knew well felt that I'm suicidal too. That would be a total ouch. But whatever. That just goes to show how well you really know me.